Anniversary

This past Thursday was our anniversary. We have now been married four years. For our anniversary, I had originally been thinking of going out to eat to celebrate, but we decided that it would be too difficult to take Stirling along with us to a restaurant. Instead we picked up some food from the Olive Garden and ate at home. There was also a HUGE!! thunderstorm that afternoon so we got some rain (yay- I appreciate rain so much more now that it happens four times a year rather than every day!) and the loudest thunderclaps that I have ever heard in my life. I took Stirling outside to listen, but he was pretty oblivious. I can't believe that RJ and I have been married for four years and together for eight!

Sad

Yesterday I took Stirling to daycare for the first time. Waaaa! Yes I cried. I kind of just shoved my baby boy at the infant teacher and got out of there before I completely broke down. I drove to school in tears. It was a practice day since I don't have to start work until Wednesday, and I think it was wise choice not to try to start work and leave Stirling on the same day. I never thought I would want to be a stay-at-home mom, but after spending the last two months with my son, I am really sad about going back. If we had the means, I just might think about being at home, or doing a job share and only teaching part time. I keep getting choked up when I look at Stirling, knowing that next week isn't practice anymore, and that I have to leave him for real.

Work and Guilt

I go back to work next week. I am looking forward to being at work, having a more firm schedule, and being intellectually challenged. I always get nervous this time of year, but it is also fun meeting all my new students, and getting to know them. Every year I feel like I have to get better and better at my job and so try to do something new and different. This year I haven't had much time to prepare and am feeling a little stressed and a little guilty for not having something spectacular and new planned for my class.
One thing I am dreading is leaving Stirling in day care. We have to have him go two days a week while RJ is working. How great is it though, that RJ can be with him the other three days. Still, leaving my baby with strangers is scary. The daycare we picked is right across the road from my school so I can get there in a hurry if I need to. And it is clean, bright, and looks like a very nice place for kids. I still get a guilty feeling however...
Should I get used to feeling like I am not doing my best for my job or my son?

Stirling Faces

Stirling is often a very happy baby, and he just looked so sweet in his little Pooh overalls. Occasionally, he does let us know he is upset and I had to snap a picture of that too. What a cutie!