Sad

Yesterday I took Stirling to daycare for the first time. Waaaa! Yes I cried. I kind of just shoved my baby boy at the infant teacher and got out of there before I completely broke down. I drove to school in tears. It was a practice day since I don't have to start work until Wednesday, and I think it was wise choice not to try to start work and leave Stirling on the same day. I never thought I would want to be a stay-at-home mom, but after spending the last two months with my son, I am really sad about going back. If we had the means, I just might think about being at home, or doing a job share and only teaching part time. I keep getting choked up when I look at Stirling, knowing that next week isn't practice anymore, and that I have to leave him for real.